[	how am i?	|	xanga... yessssss	]
[	what i hear	|	pHoToBoOtH by DcFc	]

i have chosen to drop livejournal and cross over to xanga. sry but this journal holds too many memories. 

this must be fake xangalicious baby.

[	how am i?	|	pissed 2 the max & hurt inside	]
[	what i hear	|	DeAr JaMiE by HeLLoGoOdByE	]

it takes many tears and many lies, a retard and a rope to kill me. i undo my apology to him and i wish i'd never met him. he brings a rope around my neck and makes me shake and cry and turn purple. it went from cool dude to complete man-whore in one weekend. i called with a rope around my neck and it's a scary thought to know my parents are 2 rooms away and i'm suffocating in my own world. they have no clue that i turned purple from a rope too tight or that i cried like a freak. and he doesn't know how stupid i feel for not telling him the truth. in the future he's gonna think he's sooo cool for having a person die for him... i'd never die for him, i can only die from him. it's like murder in a way. he thinks i'm overreacting, suicide is sort of an over reaction but i don't care!!! fine then, i'm over reacting, i don't care if this is how i feel, i'll fucking do it. he doesn't understand and he thinks he does but he really doesn't, he really has no clue. i just want someone to tell me that i'm okay because i know i'm not. they always question me, like are you okay or what's wrong, when they can't do one damn thing about whatever the hell is wrong with me. and he shouldn't say that i shouldn't be upset when he doesn't know how upset i should be. goddamn!!! tomorrow will suck tiny twisted josh balls.